Divorce

 Well here is something I quite literally never thought I would be saying. I’m getting divorced. I’ve seen friends and family get divorced. It was shocking to me every time. I never gave it a thought because when I got married I was married forever. He’s the love of my life and we were forever. Yes, we’ve had issues in our marriage and mostly stemming from issues I’ve had personally that I wish I would’ve dealt with, but I thought there was enough there. I guess there wasn’t. I loved our life. I loved our family. I had so many ideas for our future together and now my life feels like it’s over. I have nothing. He was my whole world. He supported me in every way and I feel abandoned. I’m not going to get into the fact that he already has someone else because that is quite literally killing me inside. I’m afraid I’m turning into the bitter jealous ex wife because I am. This isn’t fair. This is my family and she’s taking everything away from me. I can’t imagine taking a married man from his family and being ok with that. That’s something she’ll have to live with and him too. Karma and all that. I hope she’s worth it because he’s going to be missing out on precious time with his kid. That’s not really the point and I really don’t want to be on here bashing anyone but like I said I am bitter. I am so angry and so depressed and so bitter. I hate him for moving on and acting like everything is fine. I hate feeling like he’s abandoning our family and everything we’ve built together. I hate feeling like the sad pathetic stay at home wife that has no life outside of her husband and kid and should’ve prepared for something like this. I feel betrayed by my best friend and I’m so hurt. I never thought he would hurt me like this. This is so rambly but I felt like I had to get it all out. I don’t really have close friends to talk to so that’s been really hard. I do thankfully have great family support and a kid who although is only 5 years old has been so amazing. He’s so confused and worried but trying to be normal. He just keeps telling me how much he loves me and that he’ll never stop loving me 🩵 he’s the best. I don’t know if I would be here right now if it wasn’t for him. I have to stay strong for him. Keep me and my baby in your thoughts 🩷